Ah, the feeling of super glue tearing from your skin

I feel like you're pulling my hair out of my head. Sounds stupid but trust me, it SUCKS.

That's what's happening with my two friends. I've known them for... 6, 7 years now. And they just 'turn against me'?

It's always _____ this _____ that. OH! You know _____ did this? You sound just like _____! Haha, _____ is so funny. _____ is so smart.

WHATEVER! I DON'T CARE ABOUT HER! I did. Now I don't. She was my good friend. But now, she's not. And she's taken two other of my good friends with her.

Nevermind. I have other friends. Who actually care about how I feel... And care about what I think.

It still hurts tho.... Still hurts...

Alone

I don't know why lately I have been feeling lonely. Like I don't fit in with anyone. Like secretly everyone hates me. For example, when my friend cancelled out on a plan. I thought it was because they didn't like me and changed their mind about hanging out with me! I don't know. No one is there for me anymore. Not my old friends. Not my new friends. Not my good friends. So I guess this fits well, as it's . . .




Just me against the world

Best friends/ trust

The thing is, I don't know who to trust. There are these two girls who always fight. And talk bad about each other to me. So, I try to avoid them. Another girl, she's my good friend and everything. But she ALWAYS finds ways to make me feel bad. Or, like, one level lower than her. She's always "You're my best friend!" But goes off with someone else. I don't mind. But it becomes annoying. Cause it's always, (let's say the other person's name is... Helen.) "HELEN HELEN HELEN! Follow me!" And she just ignores me. What... The... URGH! And she's always, me and helen this. Me and Helen that. Jealous? Yes, yes I am. And all my other friends! They, ALWAYS talk about her. ALWAYS! Like, did you know ____ did this this this? or Me and _____ went out the other day! It was so fun! And ____ happened! It was so funny!
OH MY GOSH!
And another thing is, originality. I like to, kinda, I dunno change words a bit to make them mine. And I like to say made up phrases (they make sense). And I have my own way of doing things. When you copy my made up words and say that you started it? That ain't cool. AT ALL.
Also, your constant mood swings. I'm cool with them. Really. But sometimes, it gets extreme. I didn't do anything wrong! WHY.ARE.YOU.SCREAMING.AT.ME?!
So, you take my friends. You take my originality. You piss me off. You make me feel like dirt. WHY AM I STILL YOUR FRIEND? Good question. You wanna know why? Truth? I fear you. I know what you can do. You can make my life suck SO MUCH, that I'd want to commit. I'm already close. Nah, I'm not. But seriously, you pissing me off. I gonna try and chill. You took... Two of my possibly closest friends. And I'm not gonna say anything.

But... Now that I think about it... Maybe I'm at fault? Maybe I'm not nice? Maybe I'm the one being a bitch? I don't actually think so. Cause, I'm not the one making people feel like shit!
I don't ask my friends to go against their parents! I'm not.. I'm not..

Okay, rant is over I guess.

I feel better.

That is why, I prefer guys. They don't bitch... As much...

Not pleasant, not pleasant at all.

It sucks when people post something when they're bored. Cause that makes the blog boring. My blogis already boring so, no harm done I guess? Ha.. Ha.. Ha.. I am so depressing. Seriously.
I accidentally hit this girl on the head while playing handball. Jeez, I feel bad. And I dunno. I found her blog by accident too! I found her blog through another friend's blog and I was like," HOLY SHAT! THEY KNOW EACH OTHER?" But I feel she and her best friend don't really like me. I mean, what's not to like? I'm
1. Weird
2. Somewhat mean
3. Mature yet immature
4. Over-suspicious about whether you hate her or not.
5. Likes to ask questions
6. Random
7. Can daydream so deep that she didn't even know you called.
8. Pro at ignoring people
9. Pro at zoning out while you're talking

I think 7, 8 and 9 are somewhat the same?

OMG, I just checked on skype, and everyone is video-chatting with someone else. EXCEPT ME! I feel so pathetic. Well, I AM pathetic. So goody. Emoing alone at home. Writing on a blog in which no one reads. I feel... So... Special. Now, if I were to have friends, life would be so much better. I just keep typing you realize? I'm not stopping. Do you want to know why? Now, I've been ditched twice during a chat, within an hour. Do you realize how terrible that is? So to keep myself from falling into a deep depression, I will type on my blog. Sigh, tomorrow... Tomorrow... I hope it's fun. I'm meeting up with my friends. But I'm afraid that they would only talk to each other and leave me out. I am so... Urgh

I dislike myself. I'd understand if people don't like me. I mean, I wouldn't want to be my friend if I were me. Wait. I don't get waht I just said. I think I'm gonna emo. Wait, I AM emoing. Oh well, enough of this.

Signing out.
Me

Make me sad by making you glad

I was never really one to change myself for others..
But you?
You're different.
Not in a good way either.
You just know my sensitive spots.
You prod them with a stick.
Standing a distance away,
Just in case I blow.
Why do you do this?
Don't you know you're killing me?
Now you take my friends too.
No one to turn to.
Thanks,
Thanks.
But I won't back down,
I won't back out
Just you wait,
Karma is on the way.
Just you wait,
You gonna get what you deserve.

Just so you know

A taking-your-laptop-and-telling-you-at-the-last-minute is so not a 'just so you know' kinda thing.

I mean, seriously?

Gods! This thing is my life!

And i bet you're gonna let those little DEVILS touch it too huh?

Well, BEEP you!

I could just keep on venting!

I'm buying myself a new laptop

I don't care WHAT he says

I am.

No one can stop me

except the money problem

Maybe i'll just TAKE the money from him.

I mean, I AM his daughter. I should have gotten one of his somewhat okay traits right?

Whatever.

I'm not pissed

I'm not angry

I'm not upset

You want to know what I am?

I'm a fucking bitch, motherfucker.

Signing out,
PissedTheBEEPedOff.

Happy birthday to me...

On the night before my birthday,
most terrible thing happened.
Sadly, I can't tell u what it is.

Oh wellz.





-Iamold